Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Low on Patience!!!

Before I start this, I remember what Anushka told me last week when she was going all hyper for something and I said, 'Anushka, patience please'. She tells me: Mom, I am not a doctor. I don't have 'patients'. lollll. Anyways, to the topic.

I suffer from a rather quirky deficiency. Patience. Have always run very low on it. And I have yet to come across any 'multi-vitamin' that would help me with getting my levels up to the generically 'acceptable' ones.

They say 'good things come to those who wait'. But wait, I can’t. Agreed, that there are times when one does need to practice self-control with his actions as well as the verbal outbursts, especially in trying circumstances. Hurting someone else does not justify your impulsiveness. But how do I teach this self-control to this crazy brain and an absolute jerk of a heart?

They say 'Time is the best healer'. I would add, 'Time is also the best killer'. As you let time crawl in and let it mess with your very own feelings and visions, it acts as a slow poison. It’s like leaving a window open in your heart that is bursting with enthusiasm and excitement with your new thoughts and aspirations. A cool draft will make its way through this window and eventually dampen your spirit and mood. There is a quote that says 'Strike when the iron is hot', right? Time makes you complacent. Time extinguishes your fiery rage. Time kills your true spirit. Time brings you back to your sane ways. Time brings back the logic in your life.

Ya, ya, being hasty could possibly lead to regrets. But by following your instincts, you invariably prepare yourself for the consequences too. Hence, no matter the result, you will stand by the decision you took. After all, you did what you thought was right at that point of time, correct?
Remember, 'Intuition is a suspension of logic, due to impatience'. For just one brief second, do something totally impulsive. Something you ideally would resist. Could be as simple as yelling your lungs out. The feeling you experience therafter will be etched in your memory for a lifetime and liberate you from your fears and inhibitions. Forget regrets, it will actually make you smile.

My intention here by no means is to encourage 'Impatience'. Blessed are the ones who are in possession of this great virtue. But I do not thrive on it. I thrive on my restlessness, annoyance, excitement and rage and I know no way to suppress it. My intention is purely to 'Inspire, and be inspired'. Mind you,

If patience supports the weak,
Impatience ruins your strength too!!!

Double-edged sword huh???? :)

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